As per the doc's suggestion at my infamous MD Anderson visit, I am having a few tests performed this week. For whatever reason, I have escaped a number of common cancer assessing tests...until now.
My imagination swings back and forth where this is concerned. Did the doctors choose not to have these tests run, knowing that ignorance is bliss and that if this cancer has metastasized, finding it early doesn't make much difference than does finding it later (or so I've been told) -- other than causing extra stress, fear, worry, and sadness? Or...(and I like this much better), did the docs not order these tests because they truly don't think they are necessary. As in...they don't expect to find anything unusual in this body of mine.
Finding nothing unusual is, of course, what I'm hoping and praying for...please God.
In Cancerland, this is known as NED (No Evidence of Disease). I have a crush on NED. He's my newest love interest and mild obsession. His evil brother, ED, however, can go straight to hell. And, as a God fearing Christian, I mean that.
Today I had three tests scheduled, CT scans of my chest and abdomen and a bone scan. Luckily, thanks to an inquisitive CT technician (and one of my Walker parents), I discovered that the bone scan scheduled at another location later in the day was, in fact, a bone density scan...not what we wanted. So that appointment was quickly cancelled and rescheduled at the correct location for first thing in the morning.
Also, I have an unplanned visit to Dr. Cross' office on Thursday for an ultrasound of a mysterious lump that I just discovered in my left armpit. I am hoping that it is only scar tissue or something related to the surgery, but we will find out for certain on Thursday (with thanks to Kristen, Dr. Cross' very caring nurse who could not bear to wait until Monday and managed to work me in).
I'll be glad when these tests are behind me and will be even more glad to get good reports. NED, I do love you.
I know I have many prayer warriors out there. If you are so inclined, I would appreciate some fervent appeals on my behalf. I'd like more than anything to have something good to report in a few days.